ytd neber go sch...2day also..slackin at home..watchin vcd..cant go anywhere cos of my bloody leg..zzzzz..chatted with carol ytd til 12+mn..haha..long time neber tok 2 her le, except msgin each other..haha..den tok abt e biggest impact in her life..or sth like dat la..haha..she questioned me, wad's ther 2 write abt..haha..den i told her, write abt me lor..den she noe wad 2 write le..e 1st job she ever had, which was intro by me..i must say, dat job somehow changed me n carol..cos of a guy ba..haha..i mentioned it in my earliest posts of wad happen 2 me n carol n dat guy le..so i'm nt goin 2 mentioned it again..cos i've 4gotten clean abt my feelins 2wards him..haha.. e biggest impact in my life ar..lemme think..ar..i noe le..i will say it's love ba..haha..i thought i reali noe wad love is like..lou was my 1st stead, we were 2gether 4 one n half yr..ha..we were happi 2gether initially, bt gradually distanced, due 2 us livin so far apart n cant make time out 2 meet each other..den i found out, i was a subs 2 his ex..den we broke up, n he ended up with my god sis jasmine, whom i had severe ties with..haha..so dramatic hor..even betta times 2 broke up with, one mth b4 my bdae..ha..den i wallow for few weeks b4 i officially 4got abt him..bt we r fwens now..exchanged few greetin msges here n ther..nth else..den i stead with al's fwen, kiat, 4 e sake 2 see al..mmmm..i can say i'm quite a motive gal here..ha..cant b help..i'm been thru hard time..no1 taught me how 2 love..even my parents cos all they noe is 2 control us..noe kiat 4 a week, den stead with him 4 a week, den broke up..i was havin fun den..den stead with yb 4 few days den broke up..ha..after dis, i stead with quite guys, bt juz 4 e sake of havin fun n passin my time..haha..seems i'm quite jialat den..den sec 3 n 4 life comes n goes..few a few rumors here n ther..nt dat i care..cos i'm tryin 2 pass my life ther as peacefully as possible..carol was ther 2 help, so was mav..i wallow n struggle 2 pass my days, hav 2 act as happy-go-lucky..very tough..cos wad i feelin inside was e opps of wad i was presentin outside..ha..a mask dat was..den i met him, bn..we started as fwens, den to bro n sis..we chatted abt everything..we were so similiar yet so diff..mayb dat's how we click ba..we chatted n msg each other daily..chatted on phone til late nite, sometimes til dawn..den he told me he liked a gal, i was happi 4 him, yet i was sad..i dunno y..den we argued over his promises, broken promises..we distanced den..give each other sometimes apart, was his exact words 2 me..we did..bt i dunno how 2 led my live back 2 normal again..cos each day, i spent my day tokin or msgin him..i was in total mess den..den he msg me out of a sudden, dat's when he's drunk..ha..we argued somemore, den e next day i was totally gone..so blank..even cried in sch, n in front of kel..so jialat n ps..den i noe y i'm feelin dis way..cos i've fallen 4 him hard n deep..ha..without my knowin..as times goes by, i hope my feelins 2wards him will fade..we still msg each other, bt nt so often now, cos it's awkward btw us now..since e arguement happened..once i even mistaken his elder bro 4 him..cos they looks damn alike lor..even if i saw someone who looks a tiniest bit like him, i will think of him..dat's how deep n hard i've fallen 4 him..mayb dis is e one n only time i reali fallen 4 a guy..think i will nt fall 4 another guy again..in order nt 2 get hurt, i always say i love shane filan only..2 love a guy who is nt within ur reach is betta den lovin a guy who is within ur reach..nw i bz myself with work n comics n gamin, in order 2 pass my time more quickly..this is me..e real mich..haha..
ytd neber go sch...2day also..slackin at home..watchin vcd..cant go anywhere cos of my bloody leg..zzzzz..chatted with carol ytd til 12+mn..haha..long time neber tok 2 her le, except msgin each other..haha..den tok abt e biggest impact in her life..or sth like dat la..haha..she questioned me, wad's ther 2 write abt..haha..den i told her, write abt me lor..den she noe wad 2 write le..e 1st job she ever had, which was intro by me..i must say, dat job somehow changed me n carol..cos of a guy ba..haha..i mentioned it in my earliest posts of wad happen 2 me n carol n dat guy le..so i'm nt goin 2 mentioned it again..cos i've 4gotten clean abt my feelins 2wards him..haha.. e biggest impact in my life ar..lemme think..ar..i noe le..i will say it's love ba..haha..i thought i reali noe wad love is like..lou was my 1st stead, we were 2gether 4 one n half yr..ha..we were happi 2gether initially, bt gradually distanced, due 2 us livin so far apart n cant make time out 2 meet each other..den i found out, i was a subs 2 his ex..den we broke up, n he ended up with my god sis jasmine, whom i had severe ties with..haha..so dramatic hor..even betta times 2 broke up with, one mth b4 my bdae..ha..den i wallow for few weeks b4 i officially 4got abt him..bt we r fwens now..exchanged few greetin msges here n ther..nth else..den i stead with al's fwen, kiat, 4 e sake 2 see al..mmmm..i can say i'm quite a motive gal here..ha..cant b help..i'm been thru hard time..no1 taught me how 2 love..even my parents cos all they noe is 2 control us..noe kiat 4 a week, den stead with him 4 a week, den broke up..i was havin fun den..den stead with yb 4 few days den broke up..ha..after dis, i stead with quite guys, bt juz 4 e sake of havin fun n passin my time..haha..seems i'm quite jialat den..den sec 3 n 4 life comes n goes..few a few rumors here n ther..nt dat i care..cos i'm tryin 2 pass my life ther as peacefully as possible..carol was ther 2 help, so was mav..i wallow n struggle 2 pass my days, hav 2 act as happy-go-lucky..very tough..cos wad i feelin inside was e opps of wad i was presentin outside..ha..a mask dat was..den i met him, bn..we started as fwens, den to bro n sis..we chatted abt everything..we were so similiar yet so diff..mayb dat's how we click ba..we chatted n msg each other daily..chatted on phone til late nite, sometimes til dawn..den he told me he liked a gal, i was happi 4 him, yet i was sad..i dunno y..den we argued over his promises, broken promises..we distanced den..give each other sometimes apart, was his exact words 2 me..we did..bt i dunno how 2 led my live back 2 normal again..cos each day, i spent my day tokin or msgin him..i was in total mess den..den he msg me out of a sudden, dat's when he's drunk..ha..we argued somemore, den e next day i was totally gone..so blank..even cried in sch, n in front of kel..so jialat n ps..den i noe y i'm feelin dis way..cos i've fallen 4 him hard n deep..ha..without my knowin..as times goes by, i hope my feelins 2wards him will fade..we still msg each other, bt nt so often now, cos it's awkward btw us now..since e arguement happened..once i even mistaken his elder bro 4 him..cos they looks damn alike lor..even if i saw someone who looks a tiniest bit like him, i will think of him..dat's how deep n hard i've fallen 4 him..mayb dis is e one n only time i reali fallen 4 a guy..think i will nt fall 4 another guy again..in order nt 2 get hurt, i always say i love shane filan only..2 love a guy who is nt within ur reach is betta den lovin a guy who is within ur reach..nw i bz myself with work n comics n gamin, in order 2 pass my time more quickly..this is me..e real mich..haha..
