wheeee~~~~ i'm back from chalet...3 days away from home..it's shiok..haha..bt i'm freakin tired..tink gonna fall aslp anytime sia..haha.. mon: meet ly, jw, yv n ck at serangoon for lunch..den went pasir ris buy things..big packets small packets de...freakin heavy lor..haha..raining also..nb sia..den we took cab to downtown..sunny day...yeah..check-in, found out the blk is freakin far away...kns...so wu lu...haha...bt stay at upper floor, that means can disturb liao..haha..saw lots of simei students...lol..my fwens also there...bt at diff part lor..their fwen, alvin, join us on mon..ck n alv keep gao gay lor...bth sia..haha..bt very funny lor..enjoy a lot...haha..watch dvds the whole day...zzzz...sibei bo liao ma..bt cooked our own food...went cheers shop somemore..bought wine...haha..cool...bt since is 1st day, we were super hyper, so stay up late, bt in the end, i bth, fall aslp..cos tues gt sch ma...we all like compete to see whose snorin was the loudest, cos one finish, the other starts..can be musical show liao..haha..somemore the service there sucks..ask them for extra pillows, cannt, extra bedsheet, at nite den give us..nb sia..den the comforter got semen de lor..2pid sia..we took the extra pillows, towels, bedsheets our own..haha..fun lor.. tues: morning went back home, to change n get my stuffs...bloody hell...took cab home, den the bloody taxi driver go one big round..freak sia..den i refused to pay him more...he bo bian ma...lol..not my biz..reached home, changed, play games, take my stuff, den left for tp..sian sia..gt java class...den somemore i need 2 retake my test on thurs, which is tml..nb..java hor, we cannt understand a single thing..haha..wat method body, method head..argh!!!!! all craps..haha..bt we managed to finish our assignment...after class, went back chalet..ly they all at lan shop..so went there find them..played a while, mostly is tokin 2 my daughters n sons..haha..they super cute lor..da bao kfc back to eat, cos ly sick..watch the pacifier, damn cute lor..dinner went da bao soup to eat..their food sucks..argh!!! after dinner, drink wine..sibei sian..very fast finish 2 bottles liao..zzz..den at nite we watch juz follow laws n bao bei zai...tink around 3+ we slp..haha..tok abt ghost things, lol.. wed: 9+ 10 den wake up..haha..everybody bath, packed up, den go...had breakfast cum lunch at bk..den we all went home..sian sia..21 very fast come, bus waited for 20mins for one 23 to come..nb..den the bus driver super idiot sia..wanna check my ez link card, cos he say the pic dun looks like me..nb sia..bo bian..den super du lan the whole journey back home..met mum juz now to take keys from her..den go home...now i wanna slp..haha...ciao overall, i had my share of fun there..who say chalet mus hav many ppl den can hav..5 also can ma..see how u play there lor..
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007 @ 11:20 PM
`why is the question
why is the question i wanna ask now..the real, cold truth reali hurts..some ppl juz cannt get a life n get outta my face..backstabbers on loose, stabbin ppl everywhere, anywhere..even when they r ur cloeset fwens, no matter how long u noe each other..this juz threw me back in the face..i cannt trust ppl any more liao..even her..who acts like my buddy for so long, yet when things happen, she goes the other side, sidin ppl then me, den tell me she will always stand by me no matter wat..why? it's whole load of crap..fwen told me the truth abt her, i was shock..we were fwens for so many years, bt this turns out to be how she treats me..bitch..no wonder she n those bitches i hated most clicked so well..bitches attracts each other, to bitch together..i'm utterly disgusted by her..zhu say acting cute is her forte, i agree so..acting cute hides her sarcartism, her uglieness, her venomness..guys tend to be blind by her true face, i saw her true sides many a times.. dat time she went mia..her mum gt frantic, call ppl everywhere..nb..tot she kanna kidnapped..turns out she was fuckin guys(2 somemore) at the guys' hse..wth sia..she never get pregnant is sure lucky sia..her bf also dunno..still act qing gao, innocent..nb..this reali gt me to think..does all my fwens acts n behaves like her? will they backstab me anytime? can i trust my fwens for now n ever? i'm reali stung frm this piece of news..to tink i went to same sch as her, live near her..wth..reali sick sia..i reali need to be on guard for ppl now..bitches surroundin me, close fwens backstabbin me..i reali hate my life now..meteorities hittin my life, tsunami wavin over my life..killin me, drownin me..why do i get to be treated in this way? why is my question now...
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007 @ 12:10 AM
`escape~~~
woohoo~~~2day went escape..hehe..so nice...so long b4 i went liao...met evon n ying at serangoon..took 58 go pasir ris...met zhu n jw at arcade de pool, play a while, den go escape..haha...so nice..played all the rides available there..sian is dat revol, pirate n rainbow r closed...zzzzz...played til i shiok..haha...super wet lor..nb..can see thru..zzzzz...sian..5 more days 2 chalet...gonna escape again~~~whee~~~~~juz dat my throat is sore..scream too much liao...zzzzz....
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Saturday, June 16, 2007 @ 12:23 AM
`crime scene????
2day is self declared hols...haha..din go sch, since last day ma..haha..slp in till 12, woke up by my bro..nb..cook 4 him 2 eat, watch my anime a while, den go back slp..haha..around 5 den i woke up, den chiong liao..cos told alf i 5+ reach his hse, bt i 5+ den go out..reach his hse 6+ liao..zzzzzz...he nag n nag n nag..haiz..bo bian..my fault..ask allan over also..bt he super turtle lor, 7+ den reach..zzzz...we played dai di, n loser drink..dis time i din get 2 drink dat much, less den 2 cans..zzzzz...cos din lose dat much ma..haha..after dat, went meet chanel at prata shop..makan prata...awww...i miss prata..haha..so long never eat le...saw chanel's sis's ex..chat a while, den we went off..neighbour bein a farkin bitch again..came home onli 2 find police outside of our hse..she kpkb again..sian..faster move away..no nid see her liao..haix.. in btw while waitin 4 allan, sth happen..alf's niece came home n shout, 'blood, blood'..tot is some kiddo fall over nia..den she say no, told us went window see..see already, i was like, wat the fark..haha..cos it's reali disgustin sia..a malay teen was lyin in a pool of blood..his head bandaged..niece told us dat 4 malay teens, 3 armed with knife, came n assualt the guy..use knife to slash at his head, den he bleed damn lot..if u were in my shoe, u see le will noe wat i mean..the area was covered by puddle of blood, think gt 3 to 4 puddles...fresh red sia..den the police n paramedic came, help him rebandaged again, n carried him off...his face was so eeeeeew...sibei jialat la..they cut off his clothes also..zzzz...after carryin him off, gt sth like a body mark there..den juz now b4 goin off, went 2 see again, can see the markin lor..he must bled a lot sia..cos the playground mat was absorbed with blood..super dark patch..kaoz..cannt believe it sia..in broad daylight, with so many ppl around, they actually assualt ppl lor..wtf..wat has the world become? so filthy sia..see tml paper or news gt feature dis a not..bth..super jialat..makes my drinkin session so dull..
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Thursday, June 14, 2007 @ 10:27 PM
`eng maths paper
2day had eng maths paper..woohoo..nice one..reach sch late..so was kinda late for paper..bt finish 1st..quite easy la..bt dat sure whether can pass with flyin colours a not..haha..wireless did nth..juz sit there, slack, chat, sleep..shah, ridz n fahmi r bein sick again..pinch n stamp on me..wth..bloody bulli... after sch, went home changed..den went US look for sheena..den we had lunch 2gether..jo brought her son, jordan, along..bth him..he scared of me cos i'm fierce..he so young bt so cheeky..he told sheena dat mine was bigger den jo...wth sia..damn ti co..den he say farkin rude things to jo n sheena..den i scold him..super du lan..he bloody not happy n stare at me, so i stare back..bloody hell...who scared of him..den went square 2 shoppin..haha..so nice..spent $100+ 2day..my outfit already $60+ liao, shoes $20 like dat, vcds $30 like dat...bt happy la..cos of some bastards givin nonsense comments in my blog..nb..wanna o2 liao..haha..tml go drinkin liao..yeah~~~~
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@ 12:14 AM
`thx gals n guys
thx darlings for wat u all have done 4 me..i'm reali touched..those mother farkers shld reali get a life..esp they tried 2 make my life hell again..wtf sia..bloody senseless..thx 2 those who loves n care for me...i promise i wun do anything 2 hurt myself again...
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007 @ 10:24 PM
`wireless test
2day wireless test gone case liao..haha..tot is tml, so din study..haiz..idiot sia..kns..tink gonna get 10+ marks onli..haha..suay bong sia..dots..nvm..tml test jia you ba..haha..ridz was being so sickening 2day..he accidentally touch my arms, den he was like, ur arms like pillow..so nice...argh..sickening..den after dat, shah pinch my arms..ouch..dat hurts..fahmi did the same..all becos of ridz, they two do the same to me liao..wtf..den they was like, u choose, either being pinch or being throw by ice..nb sia..they sicko..haha..bt din happen..cos after dat went home..bt din reali went home..went kitying's hse 2 slack..haha..nice sia..den went play bball n badminton..lolx..enjoy myself tho is tired.. removed some bloggie entries..due to over population of 'welcoming' comments..haha..nvm..dat's me wat..u dun like wat i'm doin, juz fuckin go away..no ppl force u 2 see, unless u fuckin curious 2 see..haha..seems like nonsense thingie happen again..lolx..same ppl frm last time, i tink..
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007 @ 10:17 PM
`officially free
(nice ba..i cut myself de..haha...pain bt high..lol..) (shah's doin..lame sia..he put his name there..dots..)
break with him liao..we both agree to it..cos he not sure if he comin sg, n if i waited 4 him, wun it b like a waste of my time..ppl may tink dat i'm cheap or wat, like dat jiu break..bt it's true..i need to tink furthur down the road..like wat happen ytd at alf's hse..we were a bit high..hence lead to petting..it's was a mistake..dots...fwen told me dat i suddenly gave off charm sia..cos can turn a guy on dat almost lead to sex..once is sam(which happened), the other one is alf(din happened..)..
chatted on phone with mav earlier..she was such a hk love drama sucker..reali ma..ok, mav, sry abt wat i'm abt to say, cos dis is wat i tink..not every1 has a love like hk drama, or fairy tale..cos life is unfair, has it's ups n downs..each person is individual, has their own way of leadin life..for example, myself..i dun reali trust ppl dat easily, always on my guard..cos of louis ma..he reali hurts me deep n bad..was reali stung frm the relationship..think frm there, i've gotten very wild n rebelious...bt i dun shown it to others easily..my fwens were like, u r a gd gal..u wun do dat sorta thingie..bt sry, hate to tell u that, u r wrong..i'm utterly bad..i do things for the pleasure, bt if i regret it, so be it..recently, i've changed..do things dat reali hurt myself..for eg, sex n petting..i simply did it for the pleasure..haha..bt reali la..i dunno why i did dat also..bt after doin le, i felt a bit dirty n disgustin la..so cut my wrist with penknife..lol..u may tink i'm mad or wad, bt it's high..haha..zhu gonna scold me for doin so..haha..bt, nvm..i will try kick the habit de..haha..i'm a bad gal..dirty gal...guys cfm will despise me de..nvm..i happy can liao..haha..
gonna upload some pics dat i wanna upload ytd bt cant..haha..one is shah's nonsense doin..puttin his name on dat lucky draw tix, which we din gain anything nice, except pay more money den can get free drink when we watch movie..wth...haha...
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Sunday, June 10, 2007 @ 1:46 AM
`guilty
guilty..that's how i'm feelin now..i admitted to dar dar of wat i've done..instead of hatin me, blamin me, breakin with me, he say he loves me for who i am, not for wat i've done..it's heartbreakin of me to see this..it's breakin me, tearin me apart..he's too sweet for me, too understandin liao..instead, he blame the guy for wat has happen, cos he started it..he's too sweet for me..i cannt take it anymore..i goin to lose control liao..tears keep swellin up my eyes...it breaks my heart..like a water tap, non stop..i told him, if he finds me unsuitable n dirty for him, he dun wan me, wan break, it's ok, understandable de..he ask me dun tink so much, forget abt it..cos he will stay by me no matter wat..i have to do wat i deem is rite..it's for the sake for both of us, for our good, for our future..i have to leave him..i cant afford to hurt him anymore further..it's breakin me in2 two..i dun wan hurt him again..dun wan him to get hurt again..it's killin me..he's too good for me..i'm not good for him at all...it hurts...i'm guilty...
wheeee~~~~ i'm back from chalet...3 days away from home..it's shiok..haha..bt i'm freakin tired..tink gonna fall aslp anytime sia..haha.. mon: meet ly, jw, yv n ck at serangoon for lunch..den went pasir ris buy things..big packets small packets de...freakin heavy lor..haha..raining also..nb sia..den we took cab to downtown..sunny day...yeah..check-in, found out the blk is freakin far away...kns...so wu lu...haha...bt stay at upper floor, that means can disturb liao..haha..saw lots of simei students...lol..my fwens also there...bt at diff part lor..their fwen, alvin, join us on mon..ck n alv keep gao gay lor...bth sia..haha..bt very funny lor..enjoy a lot...haha..watch dvds the whole day...zzzz...sibei bo liao ma..bt cooked our own food...went cheers shop somemore..bought wine...haha..cool...bt since is 1st day, we were super hyper, so stay up late, bt in the end, i bth, fall aslp..cos tues gt sch ma...we all like compete to see whose snorin was the loudest, cos one finish, the other starts..can be musical show liao..haha..somemore the service there sucks..ask them for extra pillows, cannt, extra bedsheet, at nite den give us..nb sia..den the comforter got semen de lor..2pid sia..we took the extra pillows, towels, bedsheets our own..haha..fun lor.. tues: morning went back home, to change n get my stuffs...bloody hell...took cab home, den the bloody taxi driver go one big round..freak sia..den i refused to pay him more...he bo bian ma...lol..not my biz..reached home, changed, play games, take my stuff, den left for tp..sian sia..gt java class...den somemore i need 2 retake my test on thurs, which is tml..nb..java hor, we cannt understand a single thing..haha..wat method body, method head..argh!!!!! all craps..haha..bt we managed to finish our assignment...after class, went back chalet..ly they all at lan shop..so went there find them..played a while, mostly is tokin 2 my daughters n sons..haha..they super cute lor..da bao kfc back to eat, cos ly sick..watch the pacifier, damn cute lor..dinner went da bao soup to eat..their food sucks..argh!!! after dinner, drink wine..sibei sian..very fast finish 2 bottles liao..zzz..den at nite we watch juz follow laws n bao bei zai...tink around 3+ we slp..haha..tok abt ghost things, lol.. wed: 9+ 10 den wake up..haha..everybody bath, packed up, den go...had breakfast cum lunch at bk..den we all went home..sian sia..21 very fast come, bus waited for 20mins for one 23 to come..nb..den the bus driver super idiot sia..wanna check my ez link card, cos he say the pic dun looks like me..nb sia..bo bian..den super du lan the whole journey back home..met mum juz now to take keys from her..den go home...now i wanna slp..haha...ciao overall, i had my share of fun there..who say chalet mus hav many ppl den can hav..5 also can ma..see how u play there lor..
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 @ 11:20 PM
`why is the question
why is the question i wanna ask now..the real, cold truth reali hurts..some ppl juz cannt get a life n get outta my face..backstabbers on loose, stabbin ppl everywhere, anywhere..even when they r ur cloeset fwens, no matter how long u noe each other..this juz threw me back in the face..i cannt trust ppl any more liao..even her..who acts like my buddy for so long, yet when things happen, she goes the other side, sidin ppl then me, den tell me she will always stand by me no matter wat..why? it's whole load of crap..fwen told me the truth abt her, i was shock..we were fwens for so many years, bt this turns out to be how she treats me..bitch..no wonder she n those bitches i hated most clicked so well..bitches attracts each other, to bitch together..i'm utterly disgusted by her..zhu say acting cute is her forte, i agree so..acting cute hides her sarcartism, her uglieness, her venomness..guys tend to be blind by her true face, i saw her true sides many a times.. dat time she went mia..her mum gt frantic, call ppl everywhere..nb..tot she kanna kidnapped..turns out she was fuckin guys(2 somemore) at the guys' hse..wth sia..she never get pregnant is sure lucky sia..her bf also dunno..still act qing gao, innocent..nb..this reali gt me to think..does all my fwens acts n behaves like her? will they backstab me anytime? can i trust my fwens for now n ever? i'm reali stung frm this piece of news..to tink i went to same sch as her, live near her..wth..reali sick sia..i reali need to be on guard for ppl now..bitches surroundin me, close fwens backstabbin me..i reali hate my life now..meteorities hittin my life, tsunami wavin over my life..killin me, drownin me..why do i get to be treated in this way? why is my question now...
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 @ 12:10 AM
`escape~~~
woohoo~~~2day went escape..hehe..so nice...so long b4 i went liao...met evon n ying at serangoon..took 58 go pasir ris...met zhu n jw at arcade de pool, play a while, den go escape..haha...so nice..played all the rides available there..sian is dat revol, pirate n rainbow r closed...zzzzz...played til i shiok..haha...super wet lor..nb..can see thru..zzzzz...sian..5 more days 2 chalet...gonna escape again~~~whee~~~~~juz dat my throat is sore..scream too much liao...zzzzz....
Saturday, June 16, 2007 @ 12:23 AM
`crime scene????
2day is self declared hols...haha..din go sch, since last day ma..haha..slp in till 12, woke up by my bro..nb..cook 4 him 2 eat, watch my anime a while, den go back slp..haha..around 5 den i woke up, den chiong liao..cos told alf i 5+ reach his hse, bt i 5+ den go out..reach his hse 6+ liao..zzzzzz...he nag n nag n nag..haiz..bo bian..my fault..ask allan over also..bt he super turtle lor, 7+ den reach..zzzz...we played dai di, n loser drink..dis time i din get 2 drink dat much, less den 2 cans..zzzzz...cos din lose dat much ma..haha..after dat, went meet chanel at prata shop..makan prata...awww...i miss prata..haha..so long never eat le...saw chanel's sis's ex..chat a while, den we went off..neighbour bein a farkin bitch again..came home onli 2 find police outside of our hse..she kpkb again..sian..faster move away..no nid see her liao..haix.. in btw while waitin 4 allan, sth happen..alf's niece came home n shout, 'blood, blood'..tot is some kiddo fall over nia..den she say no, told us went window see..see already, i was like, wat the fark..haha..cos it's reali disgustin sia..a malay teen was lyin in a pool of blood..his head bandaged..niece told us dat 4 malay teens, 3 armed with knife, came n assualt the guy..use knife to slash at his head, den he bleed damn lot..if u were in my shoe, u see le will noe wat i mean..the area was covered by puddle of blood, think gt 3 to 4 puddles...fresh red sia..den the police n paramedic came, help him rebandaged again, n carried him off...his face was so eeeeeew...sibei jialat la..they cut off his clothes also..zzzz...after carryin him off, gt sth like a body mark there..den juz now b4 goin off, went 2 see again, can see the markin lor..he must bled a lot sia..cos the playground mat was absorbed with blood..super dark patch..kaoz..cannt believe it sia..in broad daylight, with so many ppl around, they actually assualt ppl lor..wtf..wat has the world become? so filthy sia..see tml paper or news gt feature dis a not..bth..super jialat..makes my drinkin session so dull..
Thursday, June 14, 2007 @ 10:27 PM
`eng maths paper
2day had eng maths paper..woohoo..nice one..reach sch late..so was kinda late for paper..bt finish 1st..quite easy la..bt dat sure whether can pass with flyin colours a not..haha..wireless did nth..juz sit there, slack, chat, sleep..shah, ridz n fahmi r bein sick again..pinch n stamp on me..wth..bloody bulli... after sch, went home changed..den went US look for sheena..den we had lunch 2gether..jo brought her son, jordan, along..bth him..he scared of me cos i'm fierce..he so young bt so cheeky..he told sheena dat mine was bigger den jo...wth sia..damn ti co..den he say farkin rude things to jo n sheena..den i scold him..super du lan..he bloody not happy n stare at me, so i stare back..bloody hell...who scared of him..den went square 2 shoppin..haha..so nice..spent $100+ 2day..my outfit already $60+ liao, shoes $20 like dat, vcds $30 like dat...bt happy la..cos of some bastards givin nonsense comments in my blog..nb..wanna o2 liao..haha..tml go drinkin liao..yeah~~~~
@ 12:14 AM
`thx gals n guys
thx darlings for wat u all have done 4 me..i'm reali touched..those mother farkers shld reali get a life..esp they tried 2 make my life hell again..wtf sia..bloody senseless..thx 2 those who loves n care for me...i promise i wun do anything 2 hurt myself again...
Wednesday, June 13, 2007 @ 10:24 PM
`wireless test
2day wireless test gone case liao..haha..tot is tml, so din study..haiz..idiot sia..kns..tink gonna get 10+ marks onli..haha..suay bong sia..dots..nvm..tml test jia you ba..haha..ridz was being so sickening 2day..he accidentally touch my arms, den he was like, ur arms like pillow..so nice...argh..sickening..den after dat, shah pinch my arms..ouch..dat hurts..fahmi did the same..all becos of ridz, they two do the same to me liao..wtf..den they was like, u choose, either being pinch or being throw by ice..nb sia..they sicko..haha..bt din happen..cos after dat went home..bt din reali went home..went kitying's hse 2 slack..haha..nice sia..den went play bball n badminton..lolx..enjoy myself tho is tired.. removed some bloggie entries..due to over population of 'welcoming' comments..haha..nvm..dat's me wat..u dun like wat i'm doin, juz fuckin go away..no ppl force u 2 see, unless u fuckin curious 2 see..haha..seems like nonsense thingie happen again..lolx..same ppl frm last time, i tink..
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 @ 10:17 PM
`officially free
(nice ba..i cut myself de..haha...pain bt high..lol..) (shah's doin..lame sia..he put his name there..dots..)
break with him liao..we both agree to it..cos he not sure if he comin sg, n if i waited 4 him, wun it b like a waste of my time..ppl may tink dat i'm cheap or wat, like dat jiu break..bt it's true..i need to tink furthur down the road..like wat happen ytd at alf's hse..we were a bit high..hence lead to petting..it's was a mistake..dots...fwen told me dat i suddenly gave off charm sia..cos can turn a guy on dat almost lead to sex..once is sam(which happened), the other one is alf(din happened..)..
chatted on phone with mav earlier..she was such a hk love drama sucker..reali ma..ok, mav, sry abt wat i'm abt to say, cos dis is wat i tink..not every1 has a love like hk drama, or fairy tale..cos life is unfair, has it's ups n downs..each person is individual, has their own way of leadin life..for example, myself..i dun reali trust ppl dat easily, always on my guard..cos of louis ma..he reali hurts me deep n bad..was reali stung frm the relationship..think frm there, i've gotten very wild n rebelious...bt i dun shown it to others easily..my fwens were like, u r a gd gal..u wun do dat sorta thingie..bt sry, hate to tell u that, u r wrong..i'm utterly bad..i do things for the pleasure, bt if i regret it, so be it..recently, i've changed..do things dat reali hurt myself..for eg, sex n petting..i simply did it for the pleasure..haha..bt reali la..i dunno why i did dat also..bt after doin le, i felt a bit dirty n disgustin la..so cut my wrist with penknife..lol..u may tink i'm mad or wad, bt it's high..haha..zhu gonna scold me for doin so..haha..bt, nvm..i will try kick the habit de..haha..i'm a bad gal..dirty gal...guys cfm will despise me de..nvm..i happy can liao..haha..
gonna upload some pics dat i wanna upload ytd bt cant..haha..one is shah's nonsense doin..puttin his name on dat lucky draw tix, which we din gain anything nice, except pay more money den can get free drink when we watch movie..wth...haha...
Sunday, June 10, 2007 @ 1:46 AM
`guilty
guilty..that's how i'm feelin now..i admitted to dar dar of wat i've done..instead of hatin me, blamin me, breakin with me, he say he loves me for who i am, not for wat i've done..it's heartbreakin of me to see this..it's breakin me, tearin me apart..he's too sweet for me, too understandin liao..instead, he blame the guy for wat has happen, cos he started it..he's too sweet for me..i cannt take it anymore..i goin to lose control liao..tears keep swellin up my eyes...it breaks my heart..like a water tap, non stop..i told him, if he finds me unsuitable n dirty for him, he dun wan me, wan break, it's ok, understandable de..he ask me dun tink so much, forget abt it..cos he will stay by me no matter wat..i have to do wat i deem is rite..it's for the sake for both of us, for our good, for our future..i have to leave him..i cant afford to hurt him anymore further..it's breakin me in2 two..i dun wan hurt him again..dun wan him to get hurt again..it's killin me..he's too good for me..i'm not good for him at all...it hurts...i'm guilty...
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(nice ba..i cut myself de..haha...pain bt high..lol..).jpg)
(shah's doin..lame sia..he put his name there..dots..)
