worked at HL 2day. was damn tiired. dunno why thiis week ii liike no appetiite siia. cant stomach anythiinq derhhz. had 2sliices of bread for breakfast. 1 piiece of kuey for lunch. 1 packet of friies for diinner. freakiinq no appetiite. dunno why also. aiiks. thiinqs happened. nort dat ii wanna dwell on iit. iit happened sho sudden. yet ii was to be blamed for iit. for nothiinq ii was beiinq kp at. for nothiinq ii was beiinq reduced to tears iin muaii shop whiile workinq wiib customer stariinq at mii, colleque tiio stun. seriiously ii hate muaiiself now. ii admiit iit's muaii fault for telliinq hiim thiinqs. but cos ii wanna hav no heavy atmosphere dhe next tiime we meet or wad. yet muaii qood iintentiion was beiinq slapped back to mii iin return so many folds. dhiis has tauqht mii one thiinq, from now on, dun be such a kpo. juz kiip muaii bloody mouth shut for qood. ii hereby state dat ii'm sho sorry for telliinq hiim thiinqs, for lettiinq eu beiinq questiioned at, for questiioniinq eur fwen why he asked mii such n such, for liikiinq hiim, for lettiinq eu take even dhe sliiqhtest blame or wadeva thiinq, for exiistiinq iin dhiis world, for beiinq born here. ii even felt more quiilty over dhe break thiinq. yet wad can ii do? suffer alone? ii tell eu all qort wad use? no use at all. eur fwen suan mii, wad eu do? lauqh eur head off. all ask diid ii ever tiink iin eur shoe. yet ii never questiion eu dhiis. diid eu ever care abt muaii feeliinq? diid eu ever thiink iin muaii shoe? everytiime eu qort anythiinq wronq, eur fwen are always dhe 1st to stand up for eu, to let mii take dhe blame or wad. ii wanna explaiin, but was ii qiiben dhe chance to? all eu all diid was to shoot eur mouth off, let mii be dhe scrapeqoat. seriiously ii'm nort tryiinq to make a fuss or wad. iit's juz dat ii've bottled too much thiinqs lerhhz. everytiime ii triied to tok to eu, ii cant briinq muaiiself to. iif ii tell eu dhiis and dat, will eu feel burdern by iit? sometiime ii juz hate muaiiself for beiinq sho weak. tiink for eu all, yet neqlect muaiiself. dhiis tiime round, ii wanna be selfiish. ii dun wanna thiink for eu all lerhhz. cos iit makes mii look sho stupiid or wad, catteriinq to all eur needs. ii'm nort iin dhe wronq, yet ii hab to apoloqiize for iit. eu merely accepted iit. yet no apoloqy came from eu to solve thiinqs. juz merely forqet iit? after kanna scoldiinq, eu wan mii forqet? eu tiink sho easy marhhz? always none of eu all apoloqiize to mii. most probably after ppl read dhiis they will comment abt iit, abt mii beiinq whiinny. ppl will stand up to eu, piityiinq eu or wad. become ii take dhe blame or wad. but dat's fine wiib mii. why? cos ii had bloody enouqh of iit all. ii wanna hab muaii piiece of peace. ii juz wanna forqet abt everythiinq. ii wun do thiinq to hurt eu. ii wun snatch hiim from eu. ii will auto self diistance muaiiself from eu both. so pls, i beq eu all. let mii off. juz lemme be for now. ii seriiously niid tiime to heal n to forqet. call mii a biitch iib eu all wan. but dhiis iish wad ii'm feeliinq at dhe moment. fuck dhiis world. fuck each and every one of eu all. fuck dhe fact dat ii'm born to iinfliict damaqe to eu. fuck dhe face dat ii even exiist. fuck iit all.
worked at HL 2day. was damn tiired. dunno why thiis week ii liike no appetiite siia. cant stomach anythiinq derhhz. had 2sliices of bread for breakfast. 1 piiece of kuey for lunch. 1 packet of friies for diinner. freakiinq no appetiite. dunno why also. aiiks. thiinqs happened. nort dat ii wanna dwell on iit. iit happened sho sudden. yet ii was to be blamed for iit. for nothiinq ii was beiinq kp at. for nothiinq ii was beiinq reduced to tears iin muaii shop whiile workinq wiib customer stariinq at mii, colleque tiio stun. seriiously ii hate muaiiself now. ii admiit iit's muaii fault for telliinq hiim thiinqs. but cos ii wanna hav no heavy atmosphere dhe next tiime we meet or wad. yet muaii qood iintentiion was beiinq slapped back to mii iin return so many folds. dhiis has tauqht mii one thiinq, from now on, dun be such a kpo. juz kiip muaii bloody mouth shut for qood. ii hereby state dat ii'm sho sorry for telliinq hiim thiinqs, for lettiinq eu beiinq questiioned at, for questiioniinq eur fwen why he asked mii such n such, for liikiinq hiim, for lettiinq eu take even dhe sliiqhtest blame or wadeva thiinq, for exiistiinq iin dhiis world, for beiinq born here. ii even felt more quiilty over dhe break thiinq. yet wad can ii do? suffer alone? ii tell eu all qort wad use? no use at all. eur fwen suan mii, wad eu do? lauqh eur head off. all ask diid ii ever tiink iin eur shoe. yet ii never questiion eu dhiis. diid eu ever care abt muaii feeliinq? diid eu ever thiink iin muaii shoe? everytiime eu qort anythiinq wronq, eur fwen are always dhe 1st to stand up for eu, to let mii take dhe blame or wad. ii wanna explaiin, but was ii qiiben dhe chance to? all eu all diid was to shoot eur mouth off, let mii be dhe scrapeqoat. seriiously ii'm nort tryiinq to make a fuss or wad. iit's juz dat ii've bottled too much thiinqs lerhhz. everytiime ii triied to tok to eu, ii cant briinq muaiiself to. iif ii tell eu dhiis and dat, will eu feel burdern by iit? sometiime ii juz hate muaiiself for beiinq sho weak. tiink for eu all, yet neqlect muaiiself. dhiis tiime round, ii wanna be selfiish. ii dun wanna thiink for eu all lerhhz. cos iit makes mii look sho stupiid or wad, catteriinq to all eur needs. ii'm nort iin dhe wronq, yet ii hab to apoloqiize for iit. eu merely accepted iit. yet no apoloqy came from eu to solve thiinqs. juz merely forqet iit? after kanna scoldiinq, eu wan mii forqet? eu tiink sho easy marhhz? always none of eu all apoloqiize to mii. most probably after ppl read dhiis they will comment abt iit, abt mii beiinq whiinny. ppl will stand up to eu, piityiinq eu or wad. become ii take dhe blame or wad. but dat's fine wiib mii. why? cos ii had bloody enouqh of iit all. ii wanna hab muaii piiece of peace. ii juz wanna forqet abt everythiinq. ii wun do thiinq to hurt eu. ii wun snatch hiim from eu. ii will auto self diistance muaiiself from eu both. so pls, i beq eu all. let mii off. juz lemme be for now. ii seriiously niid tiime to heal n to forqet. call mii a biitch iib eu all wan. but dhiis iish wad ii'm feeliinq at dhe moment. fuck dhiis world. fuck each and every one of eu all. fuck dhe fact dat ii'm born to iinfliict damaqe to eu. fuck dhe face dat ii even exiist. fuck iit all.
