work work work. tired mii out. sometimes juz feel like skippinq work. for no reason. juz so tired. havinq mood swinq ever more reqularly now. juz dunno why ii behave like dat. 2days bo call honey liao. dunno how is she. later she tink i panqseh her. lOls. kenny suddenly called mii today. dunno wad he wan. den he juz said kinda miss my voice. lOls. same to him. i miss his everythinq. but miss honey de most. xD surprisinqly jackass asri called mii. juz to say elloz to mii. retart boii. lOls. sometimes i juz freakinq missed him. but i noe i'm over him. juz miss the feelinq of havinq somebody by my side. when i turn my head or juz reach out my hand knowinq dat he wil be at every turn of the corner where i can see him. i juz miss dat feelinq of havinq warmth surroundinq my body. the body temperature dat can warmth mii, sooth mii, qive mii peace. honey can keep mii company, accompany mii chat or wadsoeva. kenny can qive mii body warmth. but dat's on the surface. juz needed somebody so important to fill the hole in my heart, to briqhten my live. i'm not wad i appeared to be. i'm not stronq. i will qet hurt very easily. i'm afraid of qetinq hurt. dat's why i dare not love anymore. all i noe is i'm sinkinq into the ever endless bottom of the darkness abyess. sinkinq more deep den i used to be. when lou and mii broke up. juz dunno who can pull mii up, save mii from beinq the old mii aqain. i hate to cry, hate to be so weak. but i quess, dat's mii. nothinq can chanqe dat. i hate qivinq the fake smile, knowinq i'm not capable of smilinq wholeheartedly from the bottom of my heart. feelinq so empty, cant feel the happiness dat ppl sometimes emit. mayb i'm really not suitable and capable of love. wonder if there's really ppl who really remember mii for who i am. mayb there's none. ok, enouqh of my emoness and rantinq. juz feel like sayinq wad i feel at the moment.
work work work. tired mii out. sometimes juz feel like skippinq work. for no reason. juz so tired. havinq mood swinq ever more reqularly now. juz dunno why ii behave like dat. 2days bo call honey liao. dunno how is she. later she tink i panqseh her. lOls. kenny suddenly called mii today. dunno wad he wan. den he juz said kinda miss my voice. lOls. same to him. i miss his everythinq. but miss honey de most. xD surprisinqly jackass asri called mii. juz to say elloz to mii. retart boii. lOls. sometimes i juz freakinq missed him. but i noe i'm over him. juz miss the feelinq of havinq somebody by my side. when i turn my head or juz reach out my hand knowinq dat he wil be at every turn of the corner where i can see him. i juz miss dat feelinq of havinq warmth surroundinq my body. the body temperature dat can warmth mii, sooth mii, qive mii peace. honey can keep mii company, accompany mii chat or wadsoeva. kenny can qive mii body warmth. but dat's on the surface. juz needed somebody so important to fill the hole in my heart, to briqhten my live. i'm not wad i appeared to be. i'm not stronq. i will qet hurt very easily. i'm afraid of qetinq hurt. dat's why i dare not love anymore. all i noe is i'm sinkinq into the ever endless bottom of the darkness abyess. sinkinq more deep den i used to be. when lou and mii broke up. juz dunno who can pull mii up, save mii from beinq the old mii aqain. i hate to cry, hate to be so weak. but i quess, dat's mii. nothinq can chanqe dat. i hate qivinq the fake smile, knowinq i'm not capable of smilinq wholeheartedly from the bottom of my heart. feelinq so empty, cant feel the happiness dat ppl sometimes emit. mayb i'm really not suitable and capable of love. wonder if there's really ppl who really remember mii for who i am. mayb there's none. ok, enouqh of my emoness and rantinq. juz feel like sayinq wad i feel at the moment.
